“I’ll check my schedule and get back to you.” I have heard this before, more than once. I know what it means too. I won’t hear from him. He won’t get back to me. He’ll blow me off once again. I admit it took me awhile to catch on and see the pattern. I gave him the benefit of the doubt more than once. I told myself, he’s busy. I trusted him to his word. I reminded myself, be patient, he said he’d get back to you and he will. But he never does.
Over time I begin to see, it’s not that he’s too busy. He manages to find the time to do the things he wants to do, when he wants to, with the people he wants to do them with. I just don't factor into that equation.
Sure he claims he’s interested. He flirts. He’s charming. He says all the right things. But actions speak louder than words and his actions scream, “Not interested.” If he truly wanted to have more of a relationship, he would find the time and make the effort.
Yet I fall for it time and again. Each time I walk away feeling hurt, disappointed, and downtrodden. I begin to doubt and question myself, what did I do? What is it about me that turns him off? Why is he playing games? The real question I should be asking myself is why are you letting it continue?
Let’s Get Emotional
My goal with the challenge this year is to use it as an exercise to write something focused on a particular emotion. I hope to convey that mood or feeling through word choice in the story. I welcome your feedback on what worked or didn’t for you in each piece.
Once upon a time...
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