I adore children. Never, in my wildest dreams, did I ever think I wouldn’t have a few of my own. But over the last few years I have had to face the harsh reality that childless is my fate. I’ve lived with endometriosis and fibroids my entire reproductive life. I was officially diagnosed in my early 20s and was told the longer I waited to have children the more difficult it would be to conceive and carry a child to term. I wasn’t concerned at the time. I was in love, in a committed relationship, and I believed we would get married and have children. I was wrong.
When that relationship came to its end, I thought I still had plenty of time. I’d meet someone new, we’d get married, and we’d have kids. Again, I was wrong. Time ran out.
It’s very difficult to force yourself to come to terms with this. I was angry with myself for failing this aspect of my life. If only I had done things differently, if I had made better decisions, if I had taken better care of myself. I was deeply saddened and mourning a loss. The emotional toll and feeling of worthlessness is mentally and physically draining. The life I had always imagined disappeared.
Let’s Get Emotional
My goal with the challenge this year is to use it as an exercise to write something focused on a particular emotion. I hope to convey that mood or feeling through word choice in the story. I welcome your feedback on what worked or didn’t for you in each piece.
Once upon a time...
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